how rude can you get?

there is always a reason for something. i dont like to travel on public transport during peak hours but it is inevitable now. it is not that i hate to squeeze with people. i hate seeing the ugly side of singaporeans more.

excuse me and thank you. these 2 simple and short phases are what our parents taught us when we need to get the attention of someone and show appreciation to others when they help you. they are polite phases. but when you said them together loudly on the packed train while trying to squeeze your way out, they dont sound as good as what they mean. you will ultimately get out what you want but you have unconsciously created an unpleasant trip for the riders. i am not sure if you will be annoyed by this but yes i do!

i am not trying to publicize the courtesy campaign that our government is always trying to push for. i just want to have a pleasant journey during peak hours. and i am sure everyone wants that too.

excited

i am feeling so excited now that i am gonna die. haha. this is a good chance for me to get out of the shithole. so i better prepare myself and score this.

it has been a while

it has been ages since i last blogged. i thought i would have forgotten the user name and password.

what have i been busy with?
1. 3 weeks into the new chapter of my life. work!
there is nothing much that i can say about it. for now, i am still undergoing training by an engineer.
good environment - checked
ok colleagues - checked
benefits - checked
progress - X

mainly because i am attached to just one engineer and i am the only new hire, there is no structured training for me. my training schedule depends heavily on whether he is free or not to train me. so there are days that i will just idle around the whole day and do nothing. i dont mind sitting at my desk to read materials although it is damn boring. but at least i know that i did something for the day. i want SOMETHING in my life.

so why am i still there? my manager has successfully painted a very bright prospective future for me for the next few months. and seriously that excites me a lot. for me to go to that phase, i just have to be patient and get through this slow sucky phase.

i shall be more proactive for the next few weeks. no more complaints from me, i hope.

2. felicity!
goi and i created this blogshop. currently we are having our 2nd launch now. we are still learning this online blogshop biz so we are still in the trial and error phase. learning bit by bit but i guess things will work out eventually. so friends, if you are reading this, pls free to feedback anything about felicity to me okay?

3. watch world cup
yes!!! the world cup is finally here. but sad to say, the matches arent exciting enough for me yet. let's just wait and see.

cheers to a better tomorrow.

felicity

i have always wanted to do something significant in my life. i do not want to tell my grandchildren the same old boring story. i was born, went for 16 years of education, found a decent job and worked till i retired. NO! that's not how i want my life to be. so on one random night, i was talking to goi and we realized we have common aspirations. seriously, we are both still young. they are still so many more things waiting for us to explore. so why wait? and that's how we started felicity.

felicity, a noun that describes the state of being happy, a source of happiness. we both immediately loved the meaning and so felicity it shall be. so what does felicity do? we are an online cosmetics spree blog. we are bringing in cosmetics that cannot be found in singapore into singapore for all the beauty junkies out there. for now, we are still in the starting off phase. seriously, when we first had a draft, it seemed pretty easy. but now it comes to doing it, it is a completely different story. we have to learn everything from SCRATCH by ourselves. and that's why i learnt how to post youtube videos on facebook fan group jus now. haha. if i use the facebook badge, the video will be posted to my own profile which totally pointless.

so i am sure there will be a lot more happenings going over at felicity. so please do join us on our facebook page for most recent updates and news. search felicity or you can link it from my facebook profile. and our first launch is on the 5 may wed at 9pm, join us at http://felicity10.wordpress.com. =) omg. this is becoming so commercialized. so in short, join my spree or you btr watch out if you are my friend. haha. cheers!

something special about this man

i saw this video a few years back. i happened to find it again when i was listening to this song on the radio ytd. he isnt the male lead in this french movie. and according to my fren, he only appeared in the movie in this scene and he did not have any dialogues. but there is sth special about him that draws me to watch this video over again and again. the music rocks and he looks deliciously hot. how can i resist?

countdown timer is working now

my last presentation as a chemical engineer was not as good as i expected even though i thought i was pretty much prepared for my section. in the end, the profs had once again drilled and squeezed us dripping dry. the worst part is they do make sense and i was unable to figure out why and where and how. these 3 most important questions couldnt be answered. it was my 2nd time i felt very disappointed with myself in the same building. i just left.

it is over and so there is no point thinking about it anymore. now, i just had to hope the minimum good karma i had accumulated over the years will work.

the deadlines were a mad rush but it was great fun working with the fellow costa ricans. i guess we might be the most happening group who think of celebration ideas for every submission date. the most amazing part is we all did not start off as friends. the group was formed by complete strangers. we might have heard of the name or knew this person exist, but we arent considered on the friends basis. so how? because i know someone from the other group and it just happened that we needed each other to form the 5 members group. glad we did that.

the countdown to my final days as an official student has started. 2 more weeks and it is really the final goodbye. it is not like the graduation ceremony we all had in primary/secondary/JC. this is THE END. i have been waiting for this day to come but when it is here, it feels different. hmmm..

you just need that person

sometimes in life, all you need is for someone to tell you that the future will come.

all shapes and sizes

people come in all shapes and sizes.

despite my 4 years in an approximately 250 chemical eng students body, i dont know know all of them. to set the bar lower, let's define know as you recognize this person in your cohort so you dont have to know this person on a personal level.

there was this day, a group of students decided to bake cookies and give them for free to those hardworking students just to make them simle.

there are some guys who are the prim and proper boyfriends. they belong to the group that mums will love them to bits at the first house visit.

on the down side, there are bound to be immature and childish (oops, do they mean the same?) people around you. their intelligence level made me feel disgusted. they describe themselves as reckless and childish but do those give them enough reasons to not act their age?

maybe meeting new people is a fun thing to do afterall.

up in the air

what will you put in your backpack?

i dont know why this movie receives so little publicity. maybe because spore is showing it very very way behind us, so the hype died down. anyway, i wanted to watch it when i saw the teaser.

it kinda strikes me now that it is important to maintain balance in life which i cant do it very well. when deadlines are near and exams are coming up, i will just locked myself in my room and study. it sounds gross but that is the sad part of my life, competing with over achievers. i dont even talk to my family much. the only time they will see me is when i go to toilet, bathe and have my meals. this little 4 walled room is like a prison cell for me.

when i realize the distance between us, i will try to get back into their lives again. and sometimes, i have to admit it is just too late. people start to drift away to look for another source of comfort when the current existing one fails. nobody stays at the same spot and waits for something to happen. people move on! well, i guess i have been a pretty fortunate girl because i do have friends who stay by and wait for me. and i know we will definitely go a long way and probably will meet up for tea when our hair turns grey. comforting thought ya.

connecting with people is a skill that i lack in. sometimes i wish i could really open up and give my friends and loved ones a hug and tell them how much i miss them and want them to stay in my life.

have you ever felt the moment when someone stares into your soul and the whole world stop moving?

those were the times

remember when you were in primary school in your graduating year, friends would start to pass around autograph books. no matter how much friends dont get along, you still want a piece of memory of that person. probably you would disinfect your book when you are home and realized none of your close friends choose to write in front of or behind his autograph.

i remember one of the must have sections is my favourites and its opposite. the list just runs like, favourite colour, teacher, friend, movie, food and blah blah blah. and now guess who i will write under my favourite friend. ASPEN HYSYS!!! i have been spending more time with it than with my bf. i have showed all emotions in front of him. happy when i see the green box with the word converged inside and all the material streams are navy blue. frustrated when the yellow box and error messages keep popping out. i was so engrossed in our little world today that my friend had to break my concentration and make me realize i am really into him.

i am sure our relationship will become stronger day by day with the exponential time i will be spending with him for the weeks to come. my love letter to him and i hope he will bring a super big smile on my face tmr morning.

argh

i am seriously suffering from insomnia now.
i need a whack to knock me out so that i can sleep.

it kills

life is a bitch.

you know your financial assets are running low but it just slowly but surely plays with your mind. you have to click on that link to steal another glance at that particular piece of art. it draws you, it steals your sanity and it robs your money.

at the end of the day, you do not feeling a slight pinch that you have lost something. you are feeling happy instead, smiling to yourself. an act of convincing yourself that you have done the right thing because it is simply irresistible and you can never find a twin out there.

shopping, especially online shopping at my own convenience, kills my money.

christmas

what does christmas mean to you?

having a family gathering and catching up with relatives and cousins? or maybe you arent exactly that close to your family, so grab a few close friends and join the christmas party.

it is close to the end of the year. some are reviewing the resolutions they have made at the beginning of the year. check, it has been done. let's put a happy face sticker beside the task. argh! did not manage to achieve this because i was too busy with work for the whole year. i simply couldnt find time to do this. excuses! so it is a sad face.

it has been good or bad, depending on how you look it. some has things to celebrate for while some cannot find the festive mood at all.

but i think what is in everyone's minds is to have a better future. better in what terms? that is for you yourself to define. i am a little greedy. i dont hope for a better future. i wish for a miracle that i know it will never happen.

how can you not love it?

engineeringisfun.com.sg.

the url says it all. it is a website to encourage O levels graduates to take up engineering in poly. when i saw the postcard, i couldnt help and burst out laughing. being in the engineering faculty for 3.5 years, why cant i find the fun part of it yet? looks like i will be a bad ambassador at the engineering booth to clarify worrying concerns of hopeful applicants on open days.

it is a little late to ask myself if engineering is the route that i want to take. do i have regrets? probably. these 3.5 years have been one of the most stressful school days i ever had. i am competing myself against elites, who are smarter than me. the most frustrating part is when my efforts dont pay off and you have course mates who can get what they want easily by whatever methods. it angers me even more. but there is nothing i can do to make myself better except to study harder to work my ass off.

sometimes, i really wish that the line life is fair is true. that would help me greatly in overcoming this personal obstacle. i may not hate my student life as a chemical engineer that much then.

what happens if i didnt choose chemical engineering in the first place? what if i had taken up accountancy instead. after all that was my 2nd choice. probably in another dimension, there is another me. and i would have chosen the alternative and could be living a completely different life. was i happier with my decision or the opposite? this is the bad thing with having too much time at hand. you will start to think about the what if.

to end with a happy note

happy 2nd year! love you =)

holidays

the mad rush in school had finally ended. it is time to sit back and relax. but i am the kind of person who cant do nothing for the entire 5 weeks. my initial plan was to look for internship. i managed to find one which was something i would like to do. i was told in the first round, i would be mainly helping the company to organize events, seminars, which i had done in school before. and the best part i would be paid for doing something i enjoy. however, the story flipped when i went for the second round. it seems like the top management did not have any intention to let me participate in any of the activities mentioned earlier due to the short duration and so i would be doing door to door sales instead. crap! tough luck.

how about looking for other temporary jobs? i did check recruit websites but the thought of working my whole holidays away puts me off a little. i want to rest before my last sem starts. or simply, i am lazy.

learn something new? i haven thought of what but my friend told me to pick up my guitar again. haha. i haven been playing it for like years. i think i have forgotten all the fingerings and stuff. dont get too excited. i am talking about the real basics of playing the guitar here. baking? i can learn from my mum but she is busy taking care of my nephews. maybe i should go and take a look at the courses at red man one day and gather friends in my attempt to burn the kitchen down.

i have rested enough and it is time to do something crazy and fun. i want to do something that is out of the ordinary, something that i dont do often. just make my holidays a little bit more exciting besides enjoying my newly bought super freakonomics.

just be yourself

we have been signing up for courses to learn something new to improve yourself. seriously, the main objective of signing up for these courses is to impress.

why should you fear when you have real capabilities? often heard but this sentence does not contain the entire truth. everyone has their own capabilities in their individual fields. it is more or less taken for granted an essential criteria one must have. given that everyone is like you, a capable person, so what is it that divides you from the others? here the part where impression counts.

we have no fear for technical aspects of everything in life because we are trained to be like that since we were young. we can definitely pick up the important notes and keep reminding ourselves of all the do and dont. seriously, doesnt this turn us into programmed robots?

when communicating, it is not the do and dont that should bother you. you should be sincere in what you do and say. dont say something just because you have learnt that it is the right thing to say. the person who sparkles in the crowd is the one who presents the naked self in front of others. be truthful and sincere. there is no point in hiding behind the mask society has created. just be yourself.

this is something i had gained from a person whom i met for 30mins today. it is interesting how meeting with people can give you a different insight to life. haha. wish me luck!

(500) days of summer

this is not a love story. it is a story of boy meets girl.

if i have to name a great movie in 2009, this would definitely be in the list. i dont know why but i just cant help falling in love with it just like when tom first met summer. it is not the usual love story when couple meets, argues and back together again. the movie experience is bitter sweet.

this is exactly the way i am feeling right now with him. love is bitter sweet. it has its ups and downs but that is what made the bond stronger and even more magical. i start to appreciate the little things and effort by him. he taught me how to love and be loved.

i am dying to re-watch this movie and friends would know i do NOT do that at all. so the conclusion is i really do love this movie. maybe i would be inspired by tom and take up architecture just when i am in my final year. what a joke! enjoy this movie when you can.

stop complaining about your life!

is it really that bad? stop digging the negative points about life! why not take a step back and look at things at another perspective. they dont show their love openly, probably because they arent expressive people. they dont hug and kiss you good night everyday but it is alright. they have their own way to tell you i love you.

i should learn to be contented with my life.

reality check

reality check. what is considered as the norm and does it exist?

a norm life of a child is to get into a SAP primary school (not sure if this is still what they called those schools now) because it gives the parents an assurance that the child will be able to ace his studies. after that, good studies is not the only worry on the parents' minds. they are seeking a all rounder development in secondary school. that is when the division occurs and obviously all parents want the best for the child. ideally, the child must graduate with at least a good honours degree and is able to find the suitable job that fetches super high pay.

wake up! that's not happening to me here. this is society's norm? anything besides that are not worthy enough in this godly society? high spirited and adventurous when i am put in an unfamiliar and foreign environments. there are so many crazy things and ideas that i thought of that i want to do. i really do feel that impossible is nothing outside. but when you are back to home sweet home, you are pulled back to reality.

i must obtain good grades are constantly on my mind. friends attending career talks and applying to jobs that are prestigious. most or maybe all said good academic results is not everything. they want to look at our lives outside studies, the so-called soft skills, too. seriously, i doubt how much truth there is in their words. i personally heard this hr personnel first asking the student, so is this your current CAP, when he passed her his resume. we are also looking at other qualifications the applicant has besides good results. tell me about it.

i wish life could be more lenient.

you should know when to stop

not get over her, i want to get her back.

is this being stubborn or having a positive mindset?

your conscious tells you that there is no way you can do to improve on the situation anymore. all factors are not within your control. it is something like it really depends on the others now. but you just refuse to give up. you want to have another shot at it because you believe that no matter how insignificant your effort is, there is always a change. the magnitude of this change is not important. probably, you will succeed if you are given another opportunity. just one more. that's what we always heard.

but really, do you need that one more additional shot? do you really believe that it will make things turn around? there is really a thin line between being stubborn and naive. you should just know when to stop and let it go. stop acting like a bull!

wait, there is not the right way. we should always think on the bright side of life. like what everyone said, the sun will always be up after a gloomy day. does it help? will it make you feel any better when you are being pushed up the wall? it doesnt change anything but mind is always stronger. when you are trapped under a collapsed building, you dont tell yourself that yes, i am going to die right here right now. nobody is going to find me and bring me out of this damn place alive. the rescue team will have to carry me out. no! you tell yourself i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive. that's why there are miracle stories of survivors who managed to escape despite being trapped under collapsed buildings for days. that's being positive.

oh why why why. why is all these negativity clouding above my head? just let things flow and nature takes its course. is this really what i want? i feel so handicapped when i am not in control. probably if world is a little less superficial, i might be a happier person.